So, I had gastric sleeve surgery...

 ... and plumb forgot all about this blog. I had surgery on 1/22/2018 at 262 lbs. Today I'm 139 lbs and haven't gained a pound in all this time. Thanks, Dr. Callery at Palomar Medical Center, Poway! I was 144 lbs on Jan 22 on my three year anniversary of the surgery; those last 5 lbs I've lost I think are due to either stress from the new job or the regular eating schedule (also due to the new job). Anyway, here's a pic i took from last year's anniversary. 

give it time

so i'm up 1.4 lbs today. i'm also on day 3 of my period. also, weighing every day can be mind-tricky b/c weight fluctuates like this. also my scale might need batteries b/c it read 225 at lowest and 234 at highest after weighing myself several times in the span of a couple of minutes. i must remember these things and not get discouraged. im excited to eventually compare day 1 to day 30.

i watched "Fit to Fat to Fit" on youtube the other day. in the show, a personal trainer intentionally gains like 60 lbs and then loses it. while losing, they work with an overweight client to bring to fit with them. at one part, the trainer was frustrated to be eating so much and not gaining a lot of weight. his wife told him to remember the feeling b/c they often tell their clients to keep to the program, dont give up, and give it time to work. i will keep all of this in mind today with this slight weight gain. no deviations today, i will give wonderslim program more time to work. im only on day ten!

staying motivated

i dont remember feeling so sure about losing weight since i did the jc program. i am just really really confident that i'm really going to do it this time. i attribute it to constantly stoking the motivation fire. everyday i blog on sparkpeople, i read/post on the fb groups for wonderslim and impatientdieter, i watch youtube videos related to weight loss. I like the wonderslim products and im super comfortable with the program. im going to do it, blogworld. this weight is coming off. im awesome.

ok forreals this time.

5/2/2017  i totally forgot i had this blog. i just reread all of my entries. ah man do i babble! In case any old readers are here: i lived and worked in south korea for a total of 8 years and i loved it. I am now home in america. I plan on returning abroad someday to teach English again, but i'm not sure when. right now family things are keeping me home for the unforeseeable future.

weight updates: my weight has bounced between 250 and 215 these years that ive been away from blogging. In august of last year i reached my highest weight ever of 256 lbs. I joined a gym, worked out 5 days a week and tried to watch what i ate and lost 20 lbs in 3 months and went down to 232 lbs. I liked the results but i did not enjoy the process. I re-learned about myself that im just not a gym person. there was never a day when going to teh gym didnt feel like a chore and I never enjoyed it. so anyways, I havent been to the gym since november. at my last doctor's appt, i was weighed and saw that i went up to 236 lbs.

One week ago, I started up wonderslim via impatient dieter and am currently at 232 lbs. It's going well and I plan on sticking to this program until i dont know when. im very comfortable with the program and it hasnt been hard to stick to so i'll just keep going until i decided to change to smth else i guess. my next big post will be when i reach 209 lbs and it'll mean 45 lbs down since aug 2016. stay tuned...

40 lbs down

stepped on the scale this morning and saw 214 and WOW i aint seen that number in a long long loooong time. today marks a full 40 lbs down. fuck yeah!

weight loss so far: 40 lbs
Biggest temptation: dad's spaghetti sauce/garlic bread
my treat: hookah
my best discovery: i can sort of cross my legs when i sit. fuck yeah!

hey, it's 2012!

hello blogworld! so a little update: i DID get the lapband in april 2010. i started at 238 lbs. at the start of march 2012, i was 226. *blush*

i guess i thought lapband would magically do it for me. and when it didnt, life things happened, you give up sort of and stop paying attention and stop making real and consistent efforts. to my sisters in the struggle: please know that i am proof that the lapband is a tool, not a solution, and you will not lose weight if you dont make the efforts.

i forgot all about this blog! end of february of this year,  i had a revelation. my birthday was coming up, i would turn 36... when i was young, i could blame my obesity on my parents and immaturity and etc etc, but im grown now. I make the choices now. I get to decide what happens. so march 1st, i decided to take another stab at controlling my food. i started following theimpatientdieter on youtube and using the wonderslim products that i buy at dietdirect.com.

 it's been one month and a 5 lb loss later. good for me! going for another 5 next month. let's goooooo!

the lap band

2008, wow has it been that long, blogworld? im getting the lap band. im scheduled for april 2nd.