home workouts

dont i already have a post titled "home workouts?" anyway, i was reading this msn forum about exercise embarrassment really interesting! though i dont think i feel quite as paranoid as others expressed, i for sure feel a degree of it, i know it; it's why i dont have a gym membership.

i've wasted so much money on gyms over the years. the only one i really enjoyed was The Women's Club, a gym exclusively for women, and i really only went once a week: to the hip hop dance class. i friggin loved that class, my moves looked so tight compared to all them white people! ok, nah, just kidding... they dont lack rhythm b/c they're white... i just used to club a lot and really really like dancing. but now i cant even bring myself to go to the occasional dance workshop, i got anxieties.

i remember i got so excited when a curves opened up in my neighborhood, and yup i didnt never go there neithers. i just canceled my membership to curves last week, i've been making a monthly donation to them for like 3 years. i bet i've been there less than 20 times. well, at least it's a black-owned curves. Ujamaa!

anyway, HOME WORKOUTS are the way to go! especially for those first few days/weeks/months that you feel self conscious. i got my aerobic rider that i love, my balance ball that i play with, and the step set just arrived and i'm excited to start that too. in a while, i'll feel more confident, and will be able to hit the gym with like it aint nothin, like my homegirl meghan. or maybe i just wont want to... that's fine... as long as i keep moving and the scale does so too, downward.

oh shoot, and you know what? it's so super great to say to myself that i started my new year resolution a month and a half ago and am already down 10 lbs. im so fierce! grrrr.