40 lbs down

stepped on the scale this morning and saw 214 and WOW i aint seen that number in a long long loooong time. today marks a full 40 lbs down. fuck yeah!

weight loss so far: 40 lbs
Biggest temptation: dad's spaghetti sauce/garlic bread
my treat: hookah
my best discovery: i can sort of cross my legs when i sit. fuck yeah!

hey, it's 2012!

hello blogworld! so a little update: i DID get the lapband in april 2010. i started at 238 lbs. at the start of march 2012, i was 226. *blush*

i guess i thought lapband would magically do it for me. and when it didnt, life things happened, you give up sort of and stop paying attention and stop making real and consistent efforts. to my sisters in the struggle: please know that i am proof that the lapband is a tool, not a solution, and you will not lose weight if you dont make the efforts.

i forgot all about this blog! end of february of this year,  i had a revelation. my birthday was coming up, i would turn 36... when i was young, i could blame my obesity on my parents and immaturity and etc etc, but im grown now. I make the choices now. I get to decide what happens. so march 1st, i decided to take another stab at controlling my food. i started following theimpatientdieter on youtube and using the wonderslim products that i buy at dietdirect.com.

 it's been one month and a 5 lb loss later. good for me! going for another 5 next month. let's goooooo!

the lap band

2008, wow has it been that long, blogworld? im getting the lap band. im scheduled for april 2nd.

spinning

ah.... i dont have anything to say. just feel kind of bad that i havent written in so long. whats up w/me, im on the treadmill every other day, for 50-70 min lately. but my eating, oh yes, the eating... im not losing a thang, im spinning my wheels. those spurts of positivity are fleeting with me, always. i wish i just was thinner already, ive been so good at maintaining :) *pish* i used to be so "anti" plastic surgery but you know what, if i had the money, i'd be gettin a lap band right now! i heard its about as safe as gall bladder surgery these days. i think we may all be thin and on somma in the future. but i dont know if the world would be for the better b/c of it... anyways... so... keep on... dont give up... blah blah blah... isn't this kitten gif super cute????!!! ah crap, it's not moving. well, if you click on it, the kitten chases the butterfly.

happy anniversary

it's one year later. i started at 251.8 and 365 days later im 228.4 which makes me 23.4 lbs down. so that's good. the first 6 months were way more gung ho than the last 6 month. well, let's see how things is 6 months from now. happy anniversary, me :)

25 lbs down

right now i weigh 227.2 lbs, im at a full 25 down. im firmly and completely out of the 230's forever and ever. *phew*

i dont have that same insane happy feeling i did at 20 lbs down... maybe b/c it took me a really really long time to get here. meh, who cares how long it took, im here, that's whats important. it's my day off work, i napped on the couch for hours, and then watched oprah while eating a kimchee kimbop, then did 55 min walking on the treadmill while watching godzilla. man, that is one crappy movie.

Weight loss so far: 25.0 lbs
Biggest temptation: giving up.
My treat: letting go and going on.
My best discovery: banana AND mario

nov

it's november 1st. down 2.0 lbs this month. yeah me!