after school special

dude, im not drinking anymore. ok wait, this isnt me saying with a hangover, "oh my god, im never going to drink that much again..." dude, this wha happened:

ive not been terribly social thus far here in korea. the weather, the money, etc. Sometimes i tag along, but it's not so fun for me b/c my colleagues hit up the bar and im not much a drinker. i like to dance. havent seen any good dancefloors yet. im a social drinker, yeah, but right now all im thinkin is that alcohol is LOADED with calories! im really trying to be conscious of what i take in, especially since im not doing my daily step set and wont until who knows. well after april 10 at least. so i drink sometimes b/c i dont want to be a party pooper, but b/c EVERY outing involves drinking, it's me drinking way way more than i usually do.

my sometimey isnt enough for some of these people. drink, drink, drink! blogworld, the peer pressure is so annoying. it's not even peer, b/c im older than most of these people, and when i say no thanks i dont want a drink, dont shove a shot of tequila at me, dammit, i said no, kid, leave me alone!

so there i was at the bar sipping on some soju/juice mix and then just decided, "dude this is stupid. i dont even want this stupid drink." so thats it, im not drinking anymore, dammit, not unless i feel like it. it really made me angry when i got to thinking about it, b/c i'd made it clear that i am working on nutrition, that alcohol has too many calories, that im not much a drinker to begin with, and yet every outing is, "C'mon, what are you drinking? I'll buy you a drink!" *sigh*

im too grown for all this. "this" meaning putting up with something that i dont want to. im in charge, i do want i want. and i dont want to go out with you if youre going to keep pushing liquor on me. go drink yourself, have a good time, deja me en paz. shit. >:(

oh cathe, i miss you...

hello blogworld! goddamn i want a tv/dvd player!!! *sigh* im doing freestyle stepping, but i miss my dvd. the scale is playing with 229-230, sounds about right. well i just wanted to do some positive writing and remind myself that i am not doing nothing. well, this is what ive doing for the last three days, and will continue to do everyday until i get that dvd player.

• depending on the day, i work on the 4th or 2nd floor and i ALWAYS take the stairs, up and down. often i'll trek up to the 4th floor to find that i need something from the 4th floor in the buildling next over, and i take the stairs down and up again. i pass the elevator and think to myself, "when i get to the top of these stairs, i'll be glad i climbed them."
  
  
• i live on the 9th floor in my apt building. nah, i dont climb the whole 9! i dont even climb the first 4! but i ALWAYS take the stairs down. hey, dont think climbing down the stairs means nothing; everything you do means something. dont dismiss yourself/your efforts. i feel the front of my thighs flex when im going down those stairs and i imagine i have strong thick firm legs like Venus and Serena.
  
  
• i now know how to get to work, so i walk. i was taking a taxi everyday b/c i wasnt sure, and b/c it was so friggin cold. the weather is warming up so i walk now.
  
  
• i do a couple of push ups with my balance ball every morning... imagining i have tight strong arms like angela basset.
  
  
• i count those calories. i dont know exactly what's all im eating, but i can make a rough guess.
  
  
• water, water, water... always. or in my case, a mix of half water, half coke zero.
  
  
• i still weigh myself everyday. i look at that 230 and remember that i will never be 240-something or 250-something ever again.
  

oh my god, why is dr ian so fucking fine?

220's

guys, oh my gosh, 228.6 today... there'd better not be anything wrong with this scale! >:(

freestyle

i cant stand all this sedetariness! i cant stand it so much that i had to make up a word for it!

i put on a music cassette tape and did some freestyle stepping today. im going broke, blogworld! i have no idea when i'll get a tv/dvd player. my first payday isnt until april mutha' fucking 10th. dont tell my parents, i dont want them to worry. the tape worked pretty well, tho, so long as i have a beat on the 2 and the 4, im alright. didnt work myself as much as cathe does, but it was cool. for sure will do it again tomorrow.

no excuses! plenty of things we can do at home without any equipment! this, this, and this, and dont forget this. and these dont need no tv or dvd player, dammit! thank you, sparkpeople!

20 pounds down!

that's right, finally found a scale and HOT DAMN, i weigh 231.6 lbs!!! that's twenty fucking pounds down! oh my goodness blogworld, this is too too wonderful! i mean, despite all that's changed in this last month or so: i left jenny craig, i moved to korea, i started a new job; and i STILL lost weight! thank you hotel major for the in-room dvd player! im so insanely happy: i really like my new job, i like the kids, i like it here in korea. and having lost a couple more pounds, that's just like gravy. man oh man, i have got to hurry up and buy a tv/dvd player, i havent done my step set in like a week, since i moved into my apartment. i have to buy, like, everything... oh my gosh, you know what too, blogworld, this also means that i am out of the 240's forever. im not even playing with 237-239, im firmly in the 230s. im bout to be firmly in the 220's, and One-derland is right around the corner! well, ok, it's down the street some, but you know what i mean. ah, it's a great day.

Weight loss so far: 20.2 lbs
Biggest temptation: so much wonderful dark chocolate in every convenience store i pass... and they're everywhere.
My treat: dark chocolate peppero sticks.
My best discovery: i can do anything!