11/30/06 today is thursday but its my friday, yeah! its morning, my ankle is a little tight, im doing some light limping. it's common for me, if i was active a lot the day before (like when i used to dance) my ankle would be tight the next day. i distinctly remember when it would happen YEARS ago, i'd be kind of proud of it b/c it was a result a hard dance practice. and i remember a few MONTHS ago, i was ashamed of it b/c it was a result of nothing more than being heavier than my body could handle. TODAY i feel... well, not ashamed. never ashamed anymore b/c im actively doing something to resolve the thing that shames me. i dont have the "proud" feeling (sad that i dont dance anymore. no, i should say, "i dont dance right now."). i dont know, i guess i just feel aware. im thinking to take the bus to work today, but between walking and bussing,it's only a difference of about 30 min. meh, i'll see how i feel.
oh yeah, i weigh 246.4 today!!!! im thinking i should take the bus to "reward" myself, but on the other hand, that's not very positive, using inactivity as a reward... lol.
11/30/06 today is thursday but its my friday, yeah! its morning, my ankle is a little tight, im doing some light limping. it's common for me, if i was active a lot the day before (like when i used to dance) my ankle would be tight the next day. i distinctly remember when it would happen YEARS ago, i'd be kind of proud of it b/c it was a result a hard dance practice. and i remember a few MONTHS ago, i was ashamed of it b/c it was a result of nothing more than being heavier than my body could handle. TODAY i feel... well, not ashamed. never ashamed anymore b/c im actively doing something to resolve the thing that shames me. i dont have the "proud" feeling (sad that i dont dance anymore. no, i should say, "i dont dance right now."). i dont know, i guess i just feel aware. im thinking to take the bus to work today, but between walking and bussing,it's only a difference of about 30 min. meh, i'll see how i feel.
oh yeah, i weigh 246.4 today!!!! im thinking i should take the bus to "reward" myself, but on the other hand, that's not very positive, using inactivity as a reward... lol.
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