oh cathe, i miss you...

hello blogworld! goddamn i want a tv/dvd player!!! *sigh* im doing freestyle stepping, but i miss my dvd. the scale is playing with 229-230, sounds about right. well i just wanted to do some positive writing and remind myself that i am not doing nothing. well, this is what ive doing for the last three days, and will continue to do everyday until i get that dvd player.

• depending on the day, i work on the 4th or 2nd floor and i ALWAYS take the stairs, up and down. often i'll trek up to the 4th floor to find that i need something from the 4th floor in the buildling next over, and i take the stairs down and up again. i pass the elevator and think to myself, "when i get to the top of these stairs, i'll be glad i climbed them."
  
  
• i live on the 9th floor in my apt building. nah, i dont climb the whole 9! i dont even climb the first 4! but i ALWAYS take the stairs down. hey, dont think climbing down the stairs means nothing; everything you do means something. dont dismiss yourself/your efforts. i feel the front of my thighs flex when im going down those stairs and i imagine i have strong thick firm legs like Venus and Serena.
  
  
• i now know how to get to work, so i walk. i was taking a taxi everyday b/c i wasnt sure, and b/c it was so friggin cold. the weather is warming up so i walk now.
  
  
• i do a couple of push ups with my balance ball every morning... imagining i have tight strong arms like angela basset.
  
  
• i count those calories. i dont know exactly what's all im eating, but i can make a rough guess.
  
  
• water, water, water... always. or in my case, a mix of half water, half coke zero.
  
  
• i still weigh myself everyday. i look at that 230 and remember that i will never be 240-something or 250-something ever again.